I have dreams. About someone I desperately want to forget.
Someone that made me vulnerable. Made me care for him. And made me feel embarrassed for who I was.

I have dreamt about him four times since I’ve been back. Seriously, sucks.
But as I’ve been told, point blank, “Well, he doesn’t seem to want to date you now, does he?”

No. And it couldn’t be more crystal clear. But when the hell can it at least lighten up a bit?
It’s not even something I’m controlling at this point. Fucking subconscious bullshit.


~ by shespeakstruth on November 5, 2013.