Last Night

We were in his apartment. He leaned over for a kiss…. then took off his shirt. And then he took off mine. Etc. etc.

I didn’t feel right. I asked him to put on a condom, but when he didn’t get one, I lost it. I shut down. Cried. It wasn’t a great sight.

Thank god he’s a friend. Thank god he understood. Even then, I guess I’m not ready to jump back into this. Especially with someone I don’t care about. It’s not me. And I’m realizing I haven’t changed. Sex is still something reserved for people I care about.


~ by shespeakstruth on February 9, 2013.